don't break my heart again

every time i hear this song i can't help but think of the night we danced to it. it was the first time you ever really danced with me and it was in the living room of our apartment. i sang the words to you and you held me tight and hugged me with the biggest smile on your face. i had just ran up three flights of stairs with my heels in my hands on a january night around midnight. you opened the door for me and i immediately hugged you as hard as i could.

i had no jacket on, no shoes, and was wearing a short dress with no sleeves. it was 31 degrees outside and when i held you i immediately felt warm. you were the only thing on my mind all night and i couldn't bear the thought of not seeing you that night and telling you how much i loved you and holding you.

this was the best song i've ever danced to anyone with. he's not a good dancer at all, but he still danced with me. and i never want to let him go. i never want to break his heart again.

"don't break my heart again,
we're one in the same.
baptized by tears,
and washed in the blame.
you can let your heart go,
but i will hunt you down.
your love is all i want to win,
don't break my heart again."

in memoriam

there are days when all i do is think of those who have come and sadly gone out of my life forever. there are days when that’s the furthest thing from my mind. i hope that whatever i do, whatever choices i make, i make them better because of what these wonderful, amazing people have shown me. my life will be better led because of everyone i’ve met and loved.

the death of a family member, friend, acquaintence leaves a huge dent in you no matter what how you try to not make it not. i’ve lost so many people i’ve known in my life in just these past two years than i have during my entire life. i love them all and pray for them and all they loved. i thank god for letting my life be enriched by such great, generous, caring, sweet, funny, truly wonderful people and it makes my life seem somewhat complacent compared to them.

i will carry their memory in my heart for the rest of my life. even if i only knew them a year, a day, or since the day i first opened my eyes there will always, always be a place in my heart for everyone i’ve lost and loved and learned such a great deal of the world from. so thank you, God for giving me the opportunity and the fortune of having such blessed people be a part of my life, my story, and my heart. death will always be something scary for me....but knowing what wonderful people i already know in heaven, make me look forward to seeing them again. until then, i hope i can make them all proud of everything i do.

R.I.P.
Joey Zuniga
Betty (spaghetti)
Tammy Herrera
Frank Wilt
Eliza Muniz Garza
Daniel Fortuna (Dj Nomonix)
Evangel Garza
Hector Garza
Eduardo Garza (my beloved grandpa)
***** i love you all and am blessed to have had you all in my life. Rest in peace, until next time.